What a great quote for all you Star Wars fans out there! I found the quote particularly relevant this week.
I am sad to report that yesterday, the “antichrist” me (or as my husband quite fondly refers to as “Satan Cammie”) unleashed its ugly head. I was nothing short of downright evil to my husband and son. Whiny, sarcastic, selfish, unloving….you name it, I did it.
I am airing my dirty laundry in hopes that this post is encouraging to someone (please tell me that I am not the only one that has an “antichrist” alter-ego?)
Alright, alright – I know the answer to that already – we’ve all got it. It’s called the “flesh nature.”
It was the ending of a week where my flesh nature had slowly been creeping into the scene until I gave over to it yesterday with embarrasing and horribly disappointing results. M.E.L.T.D.O.W.N.
During Shaan’s naptime today I was thinking over my behavior this last week. I’ve just been feeling so drained and overwhelmed (no reason in particular, no “big” things going on – just life).
Even doing things for God (say, taking time to work on the Shepherd My Child video, etc.) have been stressing me out.
I’ve been reading a really good book called “Grace Walk” by Steven McVey and read the following quote this afternoon:
“When we become Christians we possess the divine life of Jesus Christ. As we abide in Christ, His life flows out of us producing a righteous lifestyle. Before I understood that Christ is my life, I was obsessed with right and wrong. Yet, if one is not abiding in Christ, every action is wrong. To abide in Him is to walk in faith; to fail to abide in Christ is to walk after the flesh. Anytime we do things on our own, it is sin, regardless of how our actions may appear. This is exactly what Paul meant when he said, “Whatever is not from faith is from sin” (Romans 14:23). When we fail to abide in Christ, sin is not the root of the problem, but the symptom. The real issue is that we are living out of our own sufficiency, independently of Christ.”
“The definitive question in the life of a believer is….”Am I abiding in Christ at this moment?”
I have to say, last week, clearly I was not abiding in Christ and had unwittingly fallen into the trap of living out of my own sufficiency. Rather than allowing Christ to live through me, I had fallen into the snare of “doing” things for Him, and it was draining me dry. My flesh nature. My self-sufficiency. I was “trying” so hard.
But according to Jedi Master Yoda, “there is no try.” I agree.
“Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me.” – John 15:4
We can either abide in Christ, or not abide in Christ.
We can either bear fruit in Christ, or not bear fruit in Christ.
We can either do, or do not.
But there is no try. We cannot “try” to abide in Christ, “try” to bear fruit, “try” to do things for Him.
Either we’re abiding or we’re not. When we’re abiding, we’ll bear fruit. Christ will “do” things through us as we “do not.”
What a big “reality check” – anytime we notice we have become unfruitful or are doing actions that we know are wrong, the answer is that we are not abiding in Christ. We have fallen back into the trap of abiding in our “flesh natures.”
I wish I had figured that out earlier last week (before the M.E.L.T.D.O.W.N.). Time to quit “trying” and “do not.” And let Christ “do” whatever He wants through me.
Time to swim in His grace once more…